The Beginning of the Journey
Growing up and through my early 20’s I regret to admit I feed into a stereotype many have about Catholics; I was going through the motions but not investing myself, my time, or my energy into my faith. As I now think of it, I was unconscious, shut down from the beauty of my faith as I strove for acceptance in our growingly secular society. Who wants to be the religious nut?
So where did striving for societal acceptance get me? I had plenty of friends, a nice career, an amazingly wonderful husband (still do), but I felt incomplete. A type of incomplete that I knew could not be remedied by anyone but myself… or so I thought. I knew it wasn’t up to my husband and I knew a simple career change wouldn’t make a difference. I felt it was internal.
When some acquaintances experienced the loss of a child while I was expecting my first, I began to awaken to my faith and the importance of including God in your daily life. At this same time our Parish handed out copies of “Rediscover Catholicism” by Matthew Kelly and my whole world began to change. Allowing God in more began to alter my attitude toward just about everything and helped me realize that he truly does use everything for the good. Even my biggest regrets and mistakes were used in positive ways.
Five years have passed and I continue to yearn for more knowledge of my faith. This quest has led me to more joy as well as an intense drive to better myself and live my faith. This was the birth of “Consciously Catholic”. Through this endeavor, I not only hold myself accountable to dive into my faith, it also gives me an opportunity to share my journey.
To tell you a little bit about myself. I am a farmer’s daughter who, after trying the big city on for size, became a farmer’s wife. After the arrival of my first child I lasted a whole six weeks at my job as the Business Development Executive for our area healthcare system before becoming the one thing I said a never would- a stay at home mom. My husband and I live on our farm with our three children an are expecting our fourth. God has been great to me…I pray He will help me fulfill the purpose He created me for.